And it's funny because peopel will try to give you advice on finding and making friend after all that even though they have no idea why you might not make friends very quickly. I used to make friends very easily and I'm sure I still could... I just have trouble trusting them, so I won't make friends with them. I can still mostly go through the steps of making a friend. i'd just rather not get people too close because too often it seems they'll just f**k you over.
Sad that so many people put themselves first all the time. I value my friends and will bend over backwards for people who I think are friends. I had another girl who hung out with me around the same tiem as my ex best friend. She was bi and would occassionally come onto me. She was cute, petite, long dirty blondish hair, nice tits, overal a good looking girl. Well, she went out with this short, fat, dirty little a*****e. His black hair was greasy everytime I saw him. He talked her into wuiting her job and got her a job at the Pizza Hut he worked at. Had her get rid of her car so she relied on him (remember, both of these people are 19-20). And she lived with him in his apartment too. He'd beat her and she'd call me bawling. I wouldn't even ask what was wrong. I'd just ask where she was and go pick her up. No questions asked. Eventually I had to get away from that though because she thought she was in love with this chubby little f**ker and wouldn't leave no matter how much he beat the crap out of her. We tried to get her to go somewhere safe, but she never did. Oh yeah, and I think her boyfriend was afraid of me... I was quite a bit taller than he was.
Oh yeah, and the ex best friend... Barb later told me she felt guilty that I was cheating. Bullshit. She was fine with her own cheating. I never even told her boyfriend until after they broke up (they broke up, later she told my ex about me cheating, later I told her ex about her cheating).